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I should be sleeping but I can’t sleep.<\/p>\n

I hope I seem like friendly background noise. Like “I don’t get good sleep unless I hear her puttering around”-ambient sound.<\/p>\n

I want the freedom to be alone which has me fantasizing and has me craving solitude. (But I’d probably feel lonely if I ended up completely alone. Between family and roommates, I’ve never lived alone in my life.)<\/p>\n

It feels like those guys that are so sure they’ll love the post-apocalypse.<\/p>\n

You always know what it’s going to be like before you ever experience it. It’s the way humans are built. We build walls in our brains, locked-in ways of thinking. And our brains build scenarios that we can’t help believing.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I should be sleeping but I can’t sleep. I hope I seem like friendly background noise. Like “I don’t get good sleep unless I hear her puttering around”-ambient sound. I want the freedom to be alone which has me fantasizing and has me craving solitude. (But I’d probably feel lonely if I ended up completely…<\/p>\n Read More<\/span> Notes<\/span><\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"Layout":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["entry","author-harperkingsley0-0","post-6730","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p2pPoL-1Ky","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":4028,"url":"https:\/\/harperkingsley.net\/blog\/prompt-031-dinosaurs\/","url_meta":{"origin":6730,"position":0},"title":"Prompt: 031. dinosaurs","author":"Harper Kingsley","date":"January 31, 2017","format":false,"excerpt":".patreon.com\/HarperKingsley. .paypal.me\/HarperKingsley. $5 for access to digital copy of \"365 Prompts\" Prompt: 031. dinosaurs 1. 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