{"id":542,"date":"2012-03-14T14:20:35","date_gmt":"2012-03-14T21:20:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/harperkingsley.wordpress.com\/?p=542"},"modified":"2023-10-17T23:38:32","modified_gmt":"2023-10-18T06:38:32","slug":"downward-spiral","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harperkingsley.net\/blog\/downward-spiral\/","title":{"rendered":"Downward Spiral"},"content":{"rendered":"

I would never think to lie to anyone and say that I am a happy-go-lucky person… no, I fully admit that I am a terribly moody bitch. But I’m pretty cyclical, so if I time things right I can *fake<\/em>* it that I’m cheerful most of the time.<\/p>\n

Anyways, I’ve noticed the last few days that my taste for life has been degrading rapidly, which is kind of a warning sign that I’m about to go down, down the rabbit hole once again. When I reach my lowest point, about the only thing I have any enthusiasm for is writing–everything else is all just shades of gray. It’s kind of like being a real life zombie. Sure, there’s no craving for brains, but I do shuffle through my days in a mindless stupor.<\/p>\n

So there will probably be writing updates here and there, and I am for sure going to make sure I hold to my weekly schedule for “Dragon Knight,” but there’s a good chance that for everything else my contact with the outside world will go dark.<\/p>\n

Please do not be offended if I don’t immediately respond to emails or messages. I will try to get back to anyone that messages me, though it might take a little while.<\/p>\n

~Pax<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I would never think to lie to anyone and say that I am a happy-go-lucky person… no, I fully admit that I am a terribly moody bitch. But I’m pretty cyclical, so if I time things right I can *fake* it that I’m cheerful most of the time. 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