{"id":5121,"date":"2020-06-02T22:27:21","date_gmt":"2020-06-03T05:27:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.harperkingsley.net\/blog\/2020\/06\/everyday-feels-like-today\/"},"modified":"2023-10-17T23:32:36","modified_gmt":"2023-10-18T06:32:36","slug":"everyday-feels-like-today","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/harperkingsley.net\/blog\/everyday-feels-like-today\/","title":{"rendered":"Everyday feels like Today"},"content":{"rendered":"

Does anybody else feel like it’s been a thousand years?<\/p>\n

I feel like this horror has been going on forever. Yet I looked up and was surprised that it was June.<\/p>\n

The life is literally being drained out of my body. I’m losing time and everything in-between.<\/p>\n

Trapped between terror and liberation. Everyday feels like Today. Every moment is Right Now.<\/p>\n

So abuses I literally saw yesterday feel like they happened a long time ago. And I know that’s wrong. I know that isn’t right.<\/p>\n

I have to fight my instincts and actually pause and think<\/em>.<\/p>\n

Because that’s why it’s systemic racism. It’s everywhere. It’s literally built<\/em> into the system. And that’s why things need to be repaired.<\/p>\n

Some people will be fired because they should<\/em> be fired. They know who they are, or will shortly be made aware through mandatory social retraining. Because the ones that aren’t killers? Have worked with some for a long time.<\/p>\n

That’s some heavy load.<\/p>\n

A lot of people desperately need therapy. Some might even need some jail time and\/or actual community service.<\/p>\n

Just saying.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Does anybody else feel like it’s been a thousand years? I feel like this horror has been going on forever. Yet I looked up and was surprised that it was June. The life is literally being drained out of my body. I’m losing time and everything in-between. Trapped between terror and liberation. Everyday feels like…<\/p>\n Read More<\/span> Everyday feels like Today<\/span><\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"Layout":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[36],"tags":[],"class_list":["entry","author-harperkingsley0-0","post-5121","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","category-kindled"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p2pPoL-1kB","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":2565,"url":"https:\/\/harperkingsley.net\/blog\/what-is-the-deal-with-airplane-food\/","url_meta":{"origin":5121,"position":0},"title":"What is the deal with airplane food…","author":"Harper Kingsley","date":"July 20, 2013","format":false,"excerpt":"No, seriously, my mind is buzzing along a million miles an hour. 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